Twenty Six Year Old Sam says she was able to transition from a female to a male after just two – one-hour counseling appointments. She has been through a challenging experience both physically and emotionally.
Sam says she did not feel comfortable with herself beginning in her teen years but now regrets transitioning to a man.
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‘Throughout my teenage years, I fluctuated around identities until I discovered videos online about people transitioning for the first time and discovering who they were.’
Sam thought perhaps this was the answer for her as well,
‘I saw a community full of so many people who had transitioned, and it had finally made them happy; with hindsight, I looked at them and thought that would be what made me happy too.
“more information should be given to individuals to make sure that their informed consent is truly informed. It has been a really difficult journey for me, and I have lost a lot of friends in the process who felt that I am in some way anti-trans.”
Sam went to a Gender Clinic in June 2017, one month after legally changing her name. She was diagnosed with Gender Dysphoria, which meant she was able to start Testosterone. She decided to make multiple physical changes,
‘I had decided I wanted to start taking testosterone and wanted surgery to remove sexual parts of my body, especially my breasts, because they were very distressing for me.”
Sam underwent a double mastectomy in May 2018, despite rules that said she must live as a man for one full year.
She described the effects that the Testosterone had on her body,
“My voice had dropped. I grew body and facial hair and even developed a micropenis. My hairline also began to recede a little, and I noticed a huge change in my emotions. Whereas I’d once been a very emotional person, it felt as though the Testosterone had numbed the heights of my emotions. Nothing made me feel incredible happy, and nothing made me incredibly sad any more.”
But within two years of transitioning to a man, the lack of female hormones in Sam’s body started to cause problems. She experienced crippling pain as vaginal atrophy set in, causing the tissue in her female sex organs to die off.
A hysterectomy was the only option she was given for dealing with the problem. She said it was at that point that she began questioning her decision to transition,
‘I wasn’t prepared to have a hysterectomy at the age of 24. I felt distressed as I didn’t feel properly informed about the side effects that came with taking testosterone.Advertisement
Sam also said,
‘I was experiencing imposter syndrome. I didn’t feel like the other men I was around, and I felt like I was constantly pretending. I was no longer comfortable living as a male.’
‘I researched more and I discovered a group of detransitioners, so I explored the femininity that I had suppressed for all of these years and I came to accept that I was female.
Sam said she is learning to embrace being a woman and the changes she made to her body. At this point, she does not want to go through breast reconstruction. She added the changes she made have,
“taken away the opportunity to learn to love my womanhood.”
Sam is not alone. Helena, a 23-year-old woman, spoke with Tucker Carlson about the feelings of hopelessness and regretted she suffered as she described her teenage insecurities and how she felt about her body as a young woman. Being told not liking her body meant she was trans, Helena says she was lied to by adults and people in the medical community who “led her down this path.”